It’s hard to know where to begin, so much has transpired in the last 19 years. So much of myself has transmuted from the person I was in the year 2000 that I can hardly recall the Dianne that set out on an unknown path of self-discovery. I do remember that it was like walking into the darkness of this unknown energy but felt that I HAD to do it. I felt that my very existence depended on it. And so I did!
I was confronted with the end of a 24 year marriage. On New Year’s Eve of 1999, I KNEW that my life was about to make a major shift. Six weeks later, it started happening. A reconnection with my high school sweetheart brought the realization of how deep my self-worth had fallen in my current relationship. My pain was unbearable to confront, manifested in my body, and through my seeking of physical relief, someone suggested a Reiki treatment. Oh My! I had no idea what to expect and just as well. It was beyond any experience imaginable. I cried for an hour and then a peace fell over me like soft snow, a blanket of love. I put my hands together above my head in gratitude and a bolt of energy stuck through, head to toe, awakening me to a new path. I had to know more. Now, don’t get the wrong idea. I am most grateful for that 24 years and my gratitude grew as I went deeper into myself. Now, I feel every detail was an experience that continues to bring my understanding and awakening more profound every day.
As I embraced Reiki, it led me to experiences, knowledge , answering questions and guiding me to places I didn’t even know existed within myself. I know that you, as the reader, can relate to this on an emotional level but you might be wondering – How did it change my physical experience?
Reiki gave me confidence in myself. As my divorced unfolded, I began the rebuilding of my self-image. The dialogues in my head were a repeating tape of failure and lack. My life seems to others to be wonderful but inside me were my ‘demon’ thoughts. I was literally struggling to survive emotionally, trying to hold at bay the feeling that life wasn’t worth living. Every day I gave myself Reiki. It was a sweet retreat from the worthlessness. And, as the days turned into weeks, love for myself grew. Weeks have turned into years and bring love within. This is not a love that is selfish – shouting my good deeds and hiding the bad choices. This is a love that sees the good and the bad and loves me anyway! BTW I’m not saying that I have reached an unconditional love for myself but the self-judgment is loosening its grip. Reiki is showing me how to love me!
Reiki led me to knowledge of how life unfolds, second to second – The Law of Creation. This was a BIG AH-HA moment! I give Reiki the credit because it opened my belief system. We believe what we see or feel. I could feel Reiki flowing through me. I could see Reiki immediately shift myself and others. I have seen miracles with Reiki. So I was asking myself “How is this possible? What is happening here?” So the answer showed up – The Law of Creation. This amazing mechanism brings the spiritual energy of Reiki into physical presence. Some of you may call this the Law of Attraction but I prefer Law of Creation because it is truly how the physical world is created.
Reiki and Law of Creation taught me Forgiveness. When I truly could grasp in my heart that I am the creator of my life and all the physical manifestations in my experiences, choices, decisions, relationships, etc, in perfect harmony with the vibrations I feel … WOW! Now I have the power to forgive others AND myself.
Reiki taught me trust … trust in myself and trust in my intuition. So many people have asked me how they can improve/develop their intuition. I don’t think it needs improvement or development. It’s already there, present within you. It’s just a matter of trusting it. When I was in a place of self-loathing and judgment, my focus was only on that and I fed it daily. Reiki shifted my focus to love and appreciation and then I began to see all the times I had trusted my intuition and how the outcome was better than I had believed it could be. Yes, TRUST is a biggie!
My gratitude overflows that I was led to Reiki; that I trusted my intuition and pursued the Reiki path. I wanted change in my life. For change to occur, there must be chaos. Appreciate the chaos for it is the process of change and miraculous new beginnings!
Blessings on your journey, Dianne
